1. brothershandmirror:

    htmlflowers:

    this is a video i filmed for my song Almost Living with my friend Ryan. Ryan came to visit while i was an inpatient in hospital and we shot this video, which is supposed to be a first hand insight into my ritual and routine while i am in hospital, over the course of one day. we wanted to organically document my food, my exercise, my treatments and procedures, the dried up pond surrounded by rocks i go to read at, taking my succulent outside for a walk, my drawing equipment, the stairwell i go to sing in and also the church organ that i play at night. all of these things provide me with a centre when i am sick. i have been playing that organ since i was 15, i have been reading by that pond since i was 13 and it means alot to me that i have a high definition film of the spaces in which i have grown so much and overcome so much pain. i feel so privelaged to be able to share it with such clarity, thank you so much Ryan, you don’t what you have done for me.

    this song is part of an album i am working on about living with cyctic fibrosis and living in an out of hospital. it’s largely recorded in hospital so it’s gonna be heaps sad, but this is how i understand myself and come to terms with challenges in my life, through singing and making things. i hope that i can properly explain some of it and i hope you like what i have to say.


    also please listen to this with headphones. the bass is way better that way. xx 

    Almost Living

    spitting blood in scented tissues 

    cough draw tears

    live like i already died at 24 years

    ward floors shine like swords in fables

    wheel chairs lined up like horses in a stable

    the dying walk round here like they been spun in circles

    supper time come 

    nightfall 

    nurse buzzer glows

    most nights no sleep 

    so i creep 

    to the moonlit smoking balconies

    rain water on my spectacles, eye lash flutter

    thinking about the eyes of my mother 

    live and die in almost way 

    even friends don’t know what to say

    nobody know what to say

    HTMLflowers’ new video.

    Re-blogging in celebration of my birthday. making this video was a big part of accepting and trying to move forward with my illness and every year i come a little closer to internal harmony through these processes. thanx 2 everyone who wrote me so many nice things, i love you all and i wanna cater 2 u always. xx

     
     
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